Sunday, December 30, 2012

The decision


I HAVE DONE IT!  I HAVE MADE A DECISION; a decision that will impact the rest of my life for either the good or the bad.   I cannot turn back now, I leave in 4 days.  Lord help me!

I am over-weight!  I hate the way I look!  I have given up.  I find it hard to walk a long distance.  I don’t feel like doing anything.  I haven’t done any true exercise in years and am feeling it. Most of my joints ache and I have a hard time getting up from sitting and getting in and out of vehicles.  I hate shopping for clothes because nothing fits right or looks good. I then get disgusted and hate myself more.   I have tried every weight-loss scheme, fad, program, gimmick and pill.  I have exercised in the gym, by DVD, by TV, by myself.  Nothing I could stick too.  Of course all the weight that was lost had come back plus more.  Thus, my decision. 

I want to be thin and healthy.  I want to get back what I have given up.  My classy, happy, professional thinner self.  I could always see myself thinner, but grieved because I never thought I would get there.  My decision will give me a chance to be a much better me!

On January 4, I leave for Puerto Vallarta.  On January 5, I will have a Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy done by Dr. Antonio Castaneda Cruz, bariatric surgeon.     I will have approximately 80% of my stomach removed laprascopically.  There have been some amazing results from this surgery, but there have also been some varying degrees of complications from this surgery.  I have done my research.  I have met the surgeon and am aware of some of the serious complications.    I feel that I am prepared and that this is the best decisio
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I will continue to blog about my experiences, my thoughts and my journey to onederland.  I’ll add a few pictures here and there and hopefully I will connect with others who have this struggle and are deciding to make their big decision.   Until tomorrow.        We all DESERVE to be happy!   ANGE.