WHY

Two more sleeps and away I fly.  Am I nervous, you bet I am!  Am I ready to go, no!  Today I start my pre-op 3-day, clear liquid diet.  Make no mistake, this will be hard.  I enjoy eating.  Food gives me comfort. It entertains me. It is my friend when I am stressed or have a problem. I have no will power when it comes to food.   I eat until I am usually too full.  Up until yesterday my life has centered around food!  BUT NO MORE!

I had my very last, stuff myself until it hurt, meal yesterday, and how fitting that it was a buffet.(rolling eyes)  After I was done and hurting I said to my family: Thank goodness that I will NEVER feel like this again!          Food can no longer be my focus in life.  I will have to train my mind to focus on other things.  I will have to undo many habits that I have had since childhood.  I will have to see exercise as my friend. In my minds eye I can see myself as a slim, happy, classy woman who is healthy and fit.  This is what I want, this is why I am having surgery.

Until tomorrow.  We all DESERVE to be slim.          Ange.